1 00:00:02,460 --> 00:00:05,540 THE GODDESS 2 00:01:21,460 --> 00:01:25,540 First part. PORTRAIT OF A YOUNG GIRL. 3 00:01:28,540 --> 00:01:31,540 MARYLAND, 1930. 4 00:02:34,460 --> 00:02:38,380 For the love of God, don't be alarmed, I have not come to spend with you 5 00:02:38,500 --> 00:02:40,380 more than four or five days. 6 00:02:41,420 --> 00:02:44,420 We have prepared a room for you, You can stay as long as you want. 7 00:02:44,620 --> 00:02:48,410 Lorraine, you will want to eat or drink something. 8 00:02:48,620 --> 00:02:52,620 After spending 11 hours on that bus, Do you know what I feel like? 9 00:02:53,500 --> 00:02:55,490 Have a good whiskey. 10 00:02:57,540 --> 00:03:00,420 You already know that in this house We don't drink whiskey. 11 00:03:01,580 --> 00:03:03,620 I'll make you a cola with ice. 12 00:03:07,500 --> 00:03:09,570 Mom's fine, George, sends you memories. 13 00:03:10,620 --> 00:03:13,420 I'm going to give him something to eat to this girl. 14 00:03:13,540 --> 00:03:17,580 He seems to like you, Alice. She doesn't let anyone catch her like that. 15 00:03:18,620 --> 00:03:23,540 Yes, there is no doubt, he likes you. It's a shame you haven't had children. 16 00:03:24,420 --> 00:03:26,540 I know how much you wanted to have them. 17 00:03:27,380 --> 00:03:30,420 They are a joy and a point of support in difficult times. 18 00:03:31,420 --> 00:03:33,540 Like the night Herbert he shot himself in the head. 19 00:03:33,620 --> 00:03:38,570 I was crying but I went to the room from Ann, I began to contemplate 20 00:03:39,420 --> 00:03:42,540 her sweet sleeping face and so I could face those terrible moments. 21 00:03:45,380 --> 00:03:49,380 I wanted to have gone to the funeral of Herbert, but he had jaundice and... 22 00:03:49,580 --> 00:03:52,620 You can't imagine what they were my five years of marriage. 23 00:03:53,460 --> 00:03:57,420 Mom didn't want me to marry him. So she had many suitors. 24 00:03:57,580 --> 00:04:00,420 I thought it was going to be a successful man. 25 00:04:00,540 --> 00:04:04,460 Everyone said he was an entrepreneur, that would have laundries 26 00:04:04,580 --> 00:04:09,370 throughout Tennessee. A charlatan is what he was. 27 00:04:10,500 --> 00:04:11,620 A failure. 28 00:04:12,580 --> 00:04:14,460 And I told him so. 29 00:04:16,460 --> 00:04:19,500 It was so vulgar. I did wrong and I'm paying it. 30 00:04:19,580 --> 00:04:23,540 He left me alone with a girl 4 years you can't help me. 31 00:04:23,620 --> 00:04:27,540 And only with 171 dollars in the bank. What a disgrace. 32 00:04:28,420 --> 00:04:31,500 If I could, I would leave you a little of money, but we are in crisis. 33 00:04:31,580 --> 00:04:37,500 Let's not continue talking about these things. It's been 5 years since we saw each other. 34 00:04:37,580 --> 00:04:40,500 These must be moments of joy. 35 00:04:51,620 --> 00:04:53,500 I assure you that I do not know what has he come for? 36 00:04:54,000 --> 00:04:56,390 He says he doesn't want money and that he does not want to live with us. 37 00:04:56,460 --> 00:04:59,460 - I don't know what he wants. - But he wants something, I'm sure. 38 00:05:04,540 --> 00:05:08,460 Don't you have movie magazines? just Do you have "The Progressive Farmer"? 39 00:05:09,380 --> 00:05:15,380 Of course you like it a lot. She's completely crazy about you. 40 00:05:17,420 --> 00:05:21,380 I had never seen her before get so attached to someone. 41 00:05:23,580 --> 00:05:26,380 I must tell you that dinner It has been wonderful. 42 00:05:26,500 --> 00:05:28,380 George, you have a great wife. 43 00:05:29,500 --> 00:05:31,540 Let's go to the kitchen. What are we doing sitting here...? 44 00:05:32,420 --> 00:05:35,420 I have always envied those who they know how to cook. I am a disaster. 45 00:05:35,540 --> 00:05:38,460 But I am happy and smiling, It's my character. 46 00:05:38,580 --> 00:05:40,570 I always smile at the adversities. 47 00:05:41,580 --> 00:05:45,540 - Can I turn on the radio? - Do what you want, Lorraine. 48 00:05:46,540 --> 00:05:49,500 I don't remember the last time that I went to dance. 49 00:05:50,420 --> 00:05:52,556 The truth is that I don't remember The last time I did something. 50 00:05:52,580 --> 00:05:54,380 Herbert was so sober. 51 00:05:57,540 --> 00:06:00,540 I have been able to keep my figure, don't you think? 52 00:06:00,620 --> 00:06:04,460 You certainly don't look more than 19 years. 53 00:06:05,460 --> 00:06:07,530 If I have a defect It's just that I'm vain. 54 00:06:07,620 --> 00:06:10,420 I was very worried about my figure When Ann was born, 55 00:06:10,540 --> 00:06:15,570 but since I did exercises every Tomorrow, I have everything in place. 56 00:06:17,580 --> 00:06:20,500 They still look at me when I go down the street 57 00:06:20,620 --> 00:06:27,460 On the bus, a man sitting in front of me he turned to talk to me. 58 00:06:29,500 --> 00:06:31,540 I would like to remarry. 59 00:06:32,580 --> 00:06:35,500 How long do you think it would be appropriate to wait still, 60 00:06:35,620 --> 00:06:40,460 because of Herbert, before seriously dating another man? 61 00:06:41,380 --> 00:06:43,580 I know one in Clarksville who is interested in me. 62 00:06:45,500 --> 00:06:47,620 I don't know what else I can do except get married. 63 00:06:48,620 --> 00:06:51,460 I can't stand being alone. 64 00:06:53,420 --> 00:06:56,380 Can I turn off that radio? It drives me crazy. 65 00:06:57,540 --> 00:07:00,460 Try to calm down, you are very nervous. 66 00:07:00,580 --> 00:07:03,500 Calm down, Lorraine. You have lived a Terrible experience, sit down. 67 00:07:04,500 --> 00:07:07,420 Mom says I can live with them to Knoxville. 68 00:07:07,500 --> 00:07:10,460 But dad and her live in that dirty two bedroom apartment 69 00:07:10,580 --> 00:07:13,620 on the main street, above from the grocery store. 70 00:07:14,460 --> 00:07:16,580 I'm sure they would die of shame if it were there. 71 00:07:17,460 --> 00:07:22,410 On the other hand, that man He says he's in love with me. 72 00:07:22,500 --> 00:07:24,380 It's very attractive. 73 00:07:24,460 --> 00:07:27,380 a little older, but very attractive. 74 00:07:27,580 --> 00:07:31,460 Five days after the funeral of Herbert asked me to marry him. 75 00:07:31,580 --> 00:07:33,460 I told him I'd think about it. 76 00:07:33,620 --> 00:07:38,620 He has a very nice house. He lives alone with a sister. 77 00:07:43,500 --> 00:07:45,410 But he doesn't like children. 78 00:07:49,420 --> 00:07:52,540 He says he doesn't want a girl. four-year-old hanging from his neck. 79 00:07:58,420 --> 00:08:03,500 I thought that as it is so delighted with you, Alice Marie... 80 00:08:04,420 --> 00:08:07,580 I haven't seen her get attached to anyone. as I have seen it with you this afternoon. 81 00:08:08,460 --> 00:08:12,380 I thought if I could leave it here. 82 00:08:12,500 --> 00:08:15,620 Just some time, until I can convince him. 83 00:08:18,220 --> 00:08:20,080 It's your own daughter. 84 00:08:20,150 --> 00:08:21,580 You've always said you wanted children. 85 00:08:21,600 --> 00:08:24,990 But you can't leave her like this, Not even if it's with us, Lorraine. 86 00:08:25,620 --> 00:08:27,610 I'm only 26 years old! 87 00:08:28,420 --> 00:08:30,620 I still have a good figure and I want to enjoy life. 88 00:08:31,540 --> 00:08:33,610 I can't keep her. I have no money. 89 00:08:34,500 --> 00:08:36,410 I can help you to find a job. 90 00:08:36,500 --> 00:08:39,420 I don't want to work! I don't want a dirty job! 91 00:08:39,500 --> 00:08:43,500 - It's about your daughter. - Well, I don't want it! 92 00:08:44,420 --> 00:08:47,420 I was in labor for 17 hours when he was born. and it's been a problem ever since. 93 00:08:47,500 --> 00:08:50,500 I didn't want her when she was born and I don't want it now. 94 00:09:03,540 --> 00:09:06,420 And Herbert's family? 95 00:09:10,620 --> 00:09:13,420 Not... pu... to them. 96 00:09:15,580 --> 00:09:18,420 That I can't go to them. 97 00:09:19,500 --> 00:09:21,460 She was also his daughter. 98 00:09:23,500 --> 00:09:25,380 I don't think it is. 99 00:09:31,620 --> 00:09:34,380 Well, Herbert and I never we got along well. 100 00:09:34,500 --> 00:09:35,620 I had to do something. 101 00:09:41,540 --> 00:09:45,460 Now I'll have to search... a job. 102 00:10:25,620 --> 00:10:29,580 Actually that wasn't what I was looking for. That's why I had to decide to see... 103 00:10:32,420 --> 00:10:33,990 What do you want? Do you want something, honey? 104 00:10:34,420 --> 00:10:36,620 - I approved. - Alright. Go home. 105 00:10:37,420 --> 00:10:39,540 - Here are the notes. - I'll see them later. Go home. 106 00:10:40,380 --> 00:10:42,370 don't bother me when I'm working. 107 00:10:46,540 --> 00:10:49,460 Sylvia, I passed! 108 00:10:49,580 --> 00:10:52,500 Next year I will go to class from Miss Kathlyn. 109 00:10:53,380 --> 00:10:54,450 Sylvia? 110 00:10:59,460 --> 00:11:02,460 Mrs. Lyon, are you at home? 111 00:11:03,580 --> 00:11:05,620 Is there anyone at home? 112 00:13:00,460 --> 00:13:01,580 I passed, you know? 113 00:13:33,540 --> 00:13:35,610 Hello, Mr. Reins. Mrs. Kingbrouhgs. 114 00:14:00,500 --> 00:14:03,380 Can I talk to you for a moment, Emily Ann? 115 00:14:04,580 --> 00:14:06,420 Were you telling me something, Louis? 116 00:14:09,500 --> 00:14:11,410 Would you like to go to the movies tonight? 117 00:14:14,500 --> 00:14:15,500 What do they put? 118 00:14:16,460 --> 00:14:19,580 "A woman's face", with Joan Crawford and Melvyn Douglas. 119 00:14:21,540 --> 00:14:22,580 I've already seen it. 120 00:14:29,620 --> 00:14:33,380 - Well, another day it will be. - You leave me very surprised, Louis, 121 00:14:33,500 --> 00:14:37,380 going with James Miller and with Frank Sutton. 122 00:14:37,500 --> 00:14:40,380 You are one of the best in school, You belong to a good family. 123 00:14:40,500 --> 00:14:41,570 Your father is a doctor. 124 00:14:42,460 --> 00:14:44,580 I don't know what James told you. Miller of me, 125 00:14:45,380 --> 00:14:47,380 but I wouldn't take myself seriously nothing he says. 126 00:14:47,500 --> 00:14:50,460 I only went out with him once and tried all kinds of things, 127 00:14:50,580 --> 00:14:52,420 but he didn't get very far. 128 00:14:52,500 --> 00:14:55,380 So I wouldn't believe anything that him or Frank Sutton said. 129 00:14:56,500 --> 00:14:57,570 What have they told you about me? 130 00:14:58,460 --> 00:15:00,370 - They haven't told me anything. - I don't believe it. 131 00:15:00,500 --> 00:15:02,380 I want to know it. What have they told you? 132 00:15:05,540 --> 00:15:07,190 we could go by car to Harlestown, 133 00:15:07,260 --> 00:15:11,420 There are three cinemas there, there will be some movie you haven't seen. 134 00:15:13,000 --> 00:15:14,460 You will see... 135 00:15:15,580 --> 00:15:19,500 I would like to go out with you, Louis, because you are from a good family, 136 00:15:20,620 --> 00:15:23,620 but I don't like that you pay attention of what James Miller says. 137 00:15:29,540 --> 00:15:32,540 You already know where I live. 138 00:15:33,420 --> 00:15:35,380 You can pick me up at 7. 139 00:15:36,580 --> 00:15:38,620 - Okay, at that time! - Hey... 140 00:15:39,580 --> 00:15:42,420 pick me up at my house like you would do with other girls. 141 00:15:42,540 --> 00:15:44,610 He wears a jacket and tie. 142 00:16:04,540 --> 00:16:06,530 I'll wash the dishes when I get back. 143 00:16:23,460 --> 00:16:26,420 - I made this dress for myself. - Really? 144 00:16:27,420 --> 00:16:31,380 I do almost everything myself. How the dress that I wore last month, 145 00:16:31,500 --> 00:16:36,450 when those of the club represent Kauffman's "Ladies of the Theatre." 146 00:16:36,580 --> 00:16:39,460 Were you there? It was a great success. 147 00:16:39,620 --> 00:16:41,530 Everyone liked it a lot. 148 00:16:41,620 --> 00:16:44,500 They said it was the best work that they had done in the drama club. 149 00:16:45,460 --> 00:16:48,380 They were all so kind to me that I started to cry. 150 00:16:48,500 --> 00:16:51,620 Miss Jiddish told me "Why are you crying?" 151 00:16:52,460 --> 00:16:54,610 I replied "I don't know, because "They are very good to me." 152 00:16:55,460 --> 00:16:59,420 And she said "You should be happy, This is your triumphant night." 153 00:16:59,500 --> 00:17:00,570 My mother came to see me. 154 00:17:01,420 --> 00:17:03,570 My mother is a Seventh-day Adventist. day. 155 00:17:04,500 --> 00:17:07,540 In recent years my mother She has become very religious. 156 00:17:08,580 --> 00:17:11,460 I guess you won't mind that he is talking so much. 157 00:17:11,580 --> 00:17:14,580 I know I've earned fame to be very talkative. 158 00:17:15,000 --> 00:17:19,460 Don't worry, I like girls Take the initiative in the conversation. 159 00:17:19,580 --> 00:17:22,380 It seems to me that I am very popular, 160 00:17:22,500 --> 00:17:24,410 precisely for always carrying the initiative. 161 00:17:30,500 --> 00:17:34,380 Do you usually daydream? I do it very often. 162 00:17:34,460 --> 00:17:36,610 I dream of going to Hollywood and be a movie star. 163 00:17:37,500 --> 00:17:39,540 I guess a lot of girls They dream the same. 164 00:17:40,460 --> 00:17:42,610 It's not that I consider myself pretty, or anything like that, 165 00:17:43,460 --> 00:17:45,580 but I have heard that makeup artists from hollywood 166 00:17:46,420 --> 00:17:49,620 make movie stars They look much prettier. 167 00:17:50,460 --> 00:17:52,420 you should read some of those magazines. 168 00:17:52,500 --> 00:17:54,580 They tell you the true stories of the stars. 169 00:17:55,380 --> 00:17:57,450 I assure you that it is almost everything makeup. 170 00:17:58,580 --> 00:18:00,570 Anyway, I think that... 171 00:18:01,460 --> 00:18:03,610 Ann Sheridan is a beauty authentic. Do you think the same? 172 00:18:06,420 --> 00:18:10,580 Do you know that Lana Turner They discovered her at 17 years old? 173 00:18:12,460 --> 00:18:14,500 I dream about that many times. 174 00:18:15,580 --> 00:18:19,500 - Don't you ever dream about that? - I don't have those kinds of dreams. 175 00:18:20,460 --> 00:18:21,580 What do you dream about? 176 00:18:25,420 --> 00:18:29,500 Well, you will see, I always dream of girls. 177 00:18:29,580 --> 00:18:32,420 I don't usually do very well. 178 00:18:33,540 --> 00:18:36,420 Do you want me to tell you something? 179 00:18:36,540 --> 00:18:39,420 Your problem is that you are very embarrassing. 180 00:18:39,500 --> 00:18:43,420 You are a very attractive boy, but You shouldn't be so shy. 181 00:18:43,620 --> 00:18:47,500 It's not that I'm crazy about you, but I was very happy 182 00:18:47,580 --> 00:18:49,460 when you asked me out. 183 00:18:51,080 --> 00:18:52,810 I am aware that your father He is a doctor, 184 00:18:53,580 --> 00:18:57,540 and that many people here He considers my mother and me vulgar. 185 00:18:58,620 --> 00:19:01,580 Do you know that before my father died we lived in Tennessee? 186 00:19:02,460 --> 00:19:05,420 And that my father was the owner from a laundry? 187 00:19:05,500 --> 00:19:07,460 We were very well regarded. 188 00:19:07,540 --> 00:19:10,990 My mother had a colored servant who I went twice a week to wash and iron. 189 00:19:11,820 --> 00:19:13,540 We were one of the best families. 190 00:19:15,580 --> 00:19:19,460 To many girls in this city They would like to have my past. 191 00:19:20,540 --> 00:19:23,540 I know they didn't invite me to the dance or the party. 192 00:19:24,380 --> 00:19:27,540 And you don't know how it hurt me. I was crying for weeks. 193 00:19:28,540 --> 00:19:30,610 He would have killed Thelma Doris and his mother. 194 00:19:31,460 --> 00:19:35,460 She was supposed to be my friend and she didn't want to invite me to your birthday party. 195 00:19:35,580 --> 00:19:39,580 I asked my mother thousands of times "Let's get out of this city," 196 00:19:39,700 --> 00:19:42,530 but no, she's just crazy about the money, he keeps it all. 197 00:19:42,620 --> 00:19:45,540 Why do you think I work in the store of fabrics after classes? 198 00:19:46,380 --> 00:19:49,460 Because she doesn't give me a penny, not even to buy a dress. 199 00:19:52,540 --> 00:19:55,580 What a genius I have, right? 200 00:19:58,420 --> 00:20:01,380 You'll have to forgive me for vented like this with you, 201 00:20:02,420 --> 00:20:04,410 But those things affect me a lot. 202 00:20:05,580 --> 00:20:09,420 I don't expect you to understand shame and humiliation 203 00:20:09,460 --> 00:20:13,420 What a girl suffers when she is not They invite you to a birthday party. 204 00:20:13,540 --> 00:20:15,530 Of course I understand, Emily Ann. 205 00:20:16,460 --> 00:20:19,540 All I ask is that I be treated with the same courtesy and respect 206 00:20:20,380 --> 00:20:21,530 than the other girls. 207 00:20:22,420 --> 00:20:25,580 The truth is, I don't think it's asking. too much, Emily Ann. 208 00:20:28,580 --> 00:20:31,380 You're a lovely boy, Louis. 209 00:20:32,460 --> 00:20:34,420 Do you know that I like you a lot? 210 00:21:15,580 --> 00:21:17,570 His real name It's not Ginger Rogers. 211 00:21:18,460 --> 00:21:19,580 Her name is Virginia McMath. 212 00:21:20,420 --> 00:21:21,596 Do you know how he started in movies? 213 00:21:21,620 --> 00:21:25,580 I was dancing in a competition from Charleston, someone saw her and... 214 00:21:26,620 --> 00:21:28,460 made her a star. 215 00:21:29,420 --> 00:21:31,380 I've thought about it a lot, in going to dance classes, 216 00:21:31,460 --> 00:21:33,500 learn tap dancing and all that. 217 00:21:33,580 --> 00:21:36,580 But in Haggerstown there is not a single place where you can learn. 218 00:21:37,420 --> 00:21:38,420 Do you know any? 219 00:21:44,500 --> 00:21:46,380 Where are we going, Louis? 220 00:21:56,460 --> 00:21:59,540 It would be best if you put the car Get going and take me home. 221 00:22:10,580 --> 00:22:11,580 Louis... 222 00:22:16,620 --> 00:22:17,620 Louis, leave me! 223 00:22:22,380 --> 00:22:24,460 You... do it with everyone else, why not with me? 224 00:22:25,580 --> 00:22:28,420 I'm dead... I assure you. 225 00:22:30,420 --> 00:22:32,380 I know what everyone think of me 226 00:22:32,540 --> 00:22:35,420 The boys murmur when I enter class. 227 00:22:35,540 --> 00:22:38,460 I'm afraid to leave them, that's all. Nobody would ask me out 228 00:22:38,540 --> 00:22:40,420 if I didn't let them. 229 00:22:42,420 --> 00:22:44,410 I would like to be dead. 230 00:23:02,420 --> 00:23:04,410 I'd like to see you again, Louis. 231 00:23:08,500 --> 00:23:10,410 Although I suppose you don't want to. 232 00:23:20,540 --> 00:23:21,580 Alright. 233 00:23:26,460 --> 00:23:27,500 Whatever you want. 234 00:23:29,580 --> 00:23:31,460 I don't mind. 235 00:23:33,460 --> 00:23:35,580 If you want to hug me, you can do it. 236 00:24:03,420 --> 00:24:08,580 Someday I'll go to Hollywood. I'll go... I'll go. 237 00:24:33,580 --> 00:24:35,540 Look at that one. 238 00:24:36,540 --> 00:24:39,540 - What a drunkenness, huh? - Maybe he's dead. 239 00:24:40,500 --> 00:24:42,840 We should take him somewhere or you will catch pneumonia. 240 00:24:43,000 --> 00:24:44,490 Yes, let's go. 241 00:24:46,420 --> 00:24:47,460 Hey, friend. 242 00:24:50,540 --> 00:24:54,460 Hey, do you know who this is? It's Tower, from John Tower's company. 243 00:24:55,420 --> 00:24:58,420 Do you know who it is? John Tower, the son of the film actor. 244 00:24:58,540 --> 00:25:00,450 Oh my god, how crazy of youth. 245 00:25:00,580 --> 00:25:02,420 Give me a hand, will you? 246 00:25:02,540 --> 00:25:04,610 - Do you think it will be okay? - Sarah, haven't you heard? 247 00:25:05,420 --> 00:25:07,410 It's John Tower, the actor's son. 248 00:25:08,420 --> 00:25:11,620 Take the key to a hotel, the Montgomery. Come on. 249 00:25:13,460 --> 00:25:16,380 John Tower, the son of John E. Tower! 250 00:25:39,000 --> 00:25:40,280 Joey, what are we going to do with him? 251 00:25:40,400 --> 00:25:43,460 It's almost twelve and we have to take the bus. 252 00:25:43,620 --> 00:25:46,460 We will tell the receptionist call a doctor. 253 00:25:48,540 --> 00:25:51,540 I'm sorry, honey, but we must take the bus 254 00:25:51,620 --> 00:25:54,500 - You have to go home alone. - Don't worry. 255 00:25:54,580 --> 00:25:56,460 Are you sure you know go alone 256 00:25:56,580 --> 00:25:59,460 Yes, sure. Go take the bus. I'll take care of him. 257 00:25:59,500 --> 00:26:01,540 - I'll call you, honey. - OK. 258 00:26:04,540 --> 00:26:05,540 Sarah, 259 00:26:06,500 --> 00:26:08,490 I think you better go home. 260 00:26:08,580 --> 00:26:10,540 I will stay here and I will take care of him. 261 00:26:11,380 --> 00:26:13,580 You can leave. I'll call you now. 262 00:26:14,620 --> 00:26:16,420 Bye bye. 263 00:27:06,500 --> 00:27:09,420 Get out of here. Out. 264 00:28:41,420 --> 00:28:45,460 We found you lying in the street. On Jackson Street. 265 00:28:45,580 --> 00:28:49,460 It was raining and we brought you here. 266 00:28:53,500 --> 00:28:55,570 Are you really John Tower's son? 267 00:28:57,460 --> 00:29:01,580 I can't meet a single girl without using those same references. 268 00:29:06,460 --> 00:29:09,380 - If you're already fine... - What do you say? 269 00:29:10,580 --> 00:29:13,540 I thought I would stay until I was sure that you were fine. 270 00:29:14,460 --> 00:29:17,540 And since you already are, I better go. 271 00:29:17,620 --> 00:29:19,530 Sit down, don't leave me now. 272 00:29:19,620 --> 00:29:22,500 I won't try anything terrible, except suicide. 273 00:29:22,580 --> 00:29:24,620 That's why I came here, to drown myself in the bathtub. 274 00:29:25,460 --> 00:29:27,450 If you want to check it, It's still full. 275 00:29:28,540 --> 00:29:31,390 Yesterday afternoon I got drunk, I came in here and I stumbled 276 00:29:31,460 --> 00:29:33,070 completely naked to the bathtub. 277 00:29:33,160 --> 00:29:36,420 I put my head in the water and I almost got it. 278 00:29:37,540 --> 00:29:39,530 But I have no talent to commit suicide 279 00:29:40,500 --> 00:29:43,500 At the Axford Hotel in New York I took 17 sleeping pills. 280 00:29:43,620 --> 00:29:46,620 But they pumped my stomach and I spent the night in the emergency room. 281 00:29:47,460 --> 00:29:50,500 I tried with gas, but I only got color in the cheeks. 282 00:29:50,580 --> 00:29:52,490 I simply don't know how to do it. 283 00:29:57,620 --> 00:30:00,580 What do you live for? Be honest, tell me. 284 00:30:04,580 --> 00:30:07,380 Any day you'll be kissing in the back seat of a car 285 00:30:07,460 --> 00:30:10,540 with a city boy. And like all your friends, you will also get married. 286 00:30:11,420 --> 00:30:13,540 You will start to gain weight and your husband will get involved with... 287 00:30:14,460 --> 00:30:16,450 with a hotel waitress. 288 00:30:17,420 --> 00:30:19,540 You will have children, you will suffer for the rent, 289 00:30:19,580 --> 00:30:23,370 you will get gray hair and suddenly you will look back and you'll say "What happened? 290 00:30:23,460 --> 00:30:24,460 "Everything ends." 291 00:30:24,500 --> 00:30:26,460 Your friends will die and you will die in melancholy 292 00:30:26,540 --> 00:30:30,620 crying bitterly after some white curtains. 293 00:30:31,500 --> 00:30:34,540 And finally they will put you in a grave in a wooden box. 294 00:30:34,620 --> 00:30:38,540 And what would your life have been like? except sorrow and suffering? 295 00:30:39,420 --> 00:30:40,460 But what do you know? 296 00:30:40,580 --> 00:30:42,570 village girl with torn socks? 297 00:30:44,540 --> 00:30:46,530 You don't know what loneliness is. 298 00:30:52,540 --> 00:30:54,660 For you it will be not having a date Saturday night, 299 00:30:55,460 --> 00:30:59,580 and you do not know the great and terrible pain of desolation. 300 00:31:00,580 --> 00:31:02,420 The desolation. 301 00:31:05,500 --> 00:31:07,540 I'm cold, close the window. 302 00:31:09,620 --> 00:31:11,420 Close it. 303 00:31:30,460 --> 00:31:32,610 The last time I saw my father It was 6 years ago. 304 00:31:35,420 --> 00:31:39,460 I was sitting in the living room of the house that he has in Sherman Oaks, 305 00:31:40,620 --> 00:31:43,540 doing solitaire and drinking wine because it's too expensive 306 00:31:44,420 --> 00:31:46,540 buy some whiskey irish rye. 307 00:31:46,620 --> 00:31:49,500 It was half hidden behind the thin white curtain 308 00:31:49,620 --> 00:31:51,530 from the smoke of your cigarette, 309 00:31:52,380 --> 00:31:53,500 in an empty house. 310 00:31:54,380 --> 00:31:56,420 Empty. 311 00:32:02,580 --> 00:32:05,380 My mother had a nervous breakdown when I was 11 years old 312 00:32:05,460 --> 00:32:08,540 and my brother Tom is admitted years ago in a madhouse, 313 00:32:08,620 --> 00:32:13,540 where he spends the day collecting imaginary strings from the ground. 314 00:32:13,620 --> 00:32:15,500 My older brother Tom. 315 00:32:20,300 --> 00:32:22,700 My father asked me "Where Have you been the last few weeks?" 316 00:32:23,420 --> 00:32:24,490 The last few weeks... 317 00:32:24,580 --> 00:32:27,580 I had been there for a year and a half in the Spanish Civil War. 318 00:32:32,500 --> 00:32:36,460 And I told him "I need psychiatric help, Dad, I'm lost. 319 00:32:36,540 --> 00:32:39,460 Sometimes I have to try hard so as not to jump out of a window. 320 00:32:39,620 --> 00:32:41,580 I ask you to be good to me." He answered me. 321 00:32:41,620 --> 00:32:44,380 "I keep a crazy son, I have enough with that one." 322 00:32:44,500 --> 00:32:46,410 That's my father. 323 00:32:46,540 --> 00:32:49,460 Star of cinema, theater and radio, admired by all. 324 00:32:49,580 --> 00:32:51,490 But you can't understand it. 325 00:32:53,540 --> 00:32:55,420 You can't understand it. 326 00:32:55,540 --> 00:32:57,530 You don't know what loneliness is. 327 00:32:58,580 --> 00:33:01,460 I'm sure you've only cried for... 328 00:33:04,620 --> 00:33:07,380 teenage love stories. 329 00:33:31,420 --> 00:33:32,490 I love you, John. 330 00:33:34,620 --> 00:33:36,500 I love you very much. 331 00:33:39,500 --> 00:33:42,540 I don't know what to do if the army It sends you somewhere else. 332 00:33:44,460 --> 00:33:45,500 I think I will die. 333 00:33:58,420 --> 00:33:59,460 I will follow you. 334 00:34:00,460 --> 00:34:01,530 Really, I'm serious. 335 00:34:07,460 --> 00:34:08,610 I wish we were married. 336 00:34:11,500 --> 00:34:12,620 She would be a good wife. 337 00:34:13,620 --> 00:34:15,460 We would have a good home. 338 00:34:16,460 --> 00:34:17,580 We would never regret it. 339 00:34:30,540 --> 00:34:33,460 - But you're not interested in me, right? - That's not true. 340 00:34:34,540 --> 00:34:36,610 I'm just someone to spend with the weekend, 341 00:34:37,460 --> 00:34:39,500 - who to take advantage of. - It's not true. 342 00:34:41,580 --> 00:34:46,530 Every time you make me wait in front from the hotel an hour or hour and a half. 343 00:34:49,420 --> 00:34:51,380 And I never know if you'll come. 344 00:34:53,580 --> 00:34:55,380 The soldiers pass 345 00:34:55,620 --> 00:34:58,580 and they play jokes on me until I get furious. 346 00:35:00,420 --> 00:35:01,460 Why do I do it? 347 00:35:03,540 --> 00:35:06,460 And for whom? You're not even interested in me. 348 00:35:09,460 --> 00:35:12,580 I cry every night before going to sleep, thinking of you 349 00:35:14,460 --> 00:35:16,530 I think about the damage they have done to you in life. 350 00:35:20,460 --> 00:35:23,460 And I think about taking care of you and creating a home for you. 351 00:35:27,580 --> 00:35:30,420 But I'm just a girl, How could it be another? 352 00:35:30,500 --> 00:35:31,540 It isn't true. 353 00:35:35,460 --> 00:35:37,580 You are the only thing I have in life, the most important thing. 354 00:35:40,460 --> 00:35:43,420 Do you think I'm a conqueror Does he go around collecting women? 355 00:35:43,540 --> 00:35:45,420 You're the first one I've talked to in months. 356 00:35:45,580 --> 00:35:47,460 Sometimes I feel so alone in my barrack 357 00:35:49,500 --> 00:35:54,450 that I have to stop myself from leaving running to call you on the phone. 358 00:35:56,540 --> 00:35:58,580 I wish you did. Hopefully. 359 00:35:59,420 --> 00:36:01,460 I fear destroying the only thing that means something for me. 360 00:36:02,460 --> 00:36:03,580 That's not true. 361 00:36:05,380 --> 00:36:08,100 Nothing had ever made me so happy in me. life like what you just said. 362 00:36:09,540 --> 00:36:11,530 I am very little to you. 363 00:36:12,500 --> 00:36:14,460 I really want to hug you, Johnny. 364 00:36:14,540 --> 00:36:19,410 We don't understand each other. now I love you and then maybe I'll regret it. 365 00:36:20,500 --> 00:36:23,620 You have a passion for respectability and I'm terrified of loneliness. 366 00:36:24,540 --> 00:36:27,460 The worst that can happen to us is that we get married. 367 00:36:27,500 --> 00:36:31,420 I'd hate you before you took off the ceremony makeup. 368 00:36:34,620 --> 00:36:36,610 She would make a good wife, John. 369 00:36:38,460 --> 00:36:39,580 We would have a good home. 370 00:36:42,420 --> 00:36:43,460 I love you. 371 00:36:52,460 --> 00:36:54,420 May God bless you and protect you. 372 00:36:54,500 --> 00:36:56,410 May the light of God shine on you 373 00:36:56,500 --> 00:36:57,660 and show you his mercy. 374 00:36:58,380 --> 00:37:01,500 - I want to thank you for everything. - There's no reason. 375 00:37:01,660 --> 00:37:04,420 - You deserve everything. - I'll call you on Monday morning. 376 00:37:04,460 --> 00:37:05,580 Don't go to sleep late. 377 00:37:06,380 --> 00:37:08,450 Thanks for the gifts and for everything. 378 00:37:09,460 --> 00:37:11,420 I don't know what's wrong with me. 379 00:37:11,500 --> 00:37:13,540 Call me tomorrow morning and tell me how you feel. 380 00:37:13,660 --> 00:37:16,460 - Does anyone want me to take you? - Goodbye, mom. 381 00:37:16,580 --> 00:37:18,620 Goodbye, mom, until Monday. 382 00:37:19,460 --> 00:37:21,580 Goodbye, goodbye! 383 00:37:23,420 --> 00:37:24,490 Bye bye! 384 00:37:45,540 --> 00:37:46,540 I am happy. 385 00:37:49,580 --> 00:37:50,620 I'm happy! 386 00:37:53,500 --> 00:37:56,540 I want to thank you for having endured the ceremony, 387 00:37:57,380 --> 00:38:00,460 that is, the priest and all the formalities. 388 00:38:01,540 --> 00:38:03,580 I know you hate them all those little formalities. 389 00:38:04,260 --> 00:38:05,580 But for me they are very important. 390 00:38:07,420 --> 00:38:09,380 I want you to know that I appreciate it. 391 00:38:14,460 --> 00:38:15,460 Well, 392 00:38:18,420 --> 00:38:20,540 I guess I should clean all this a little. 393 00:38:30,620 --> 00:38:32,580 Are you comfortable? Are you okay? 394 00:38:33,500 --> 00:38:34,540 I'm fine. 395 00:38:36,540 --> 00:38:39,540 - What are you thinking about? - Not at all. 396 00:38:42,420 --> 00:38:44,540 Give me a chance, don't turn your back on me. 397 00:38:44,620 --> 00:38:46,420 I told you I'm fine! 398 00:38:48,580 --> 00:38:50,490 I'll try to make this work, 399 00:38:50,620 --> 00:38:53,460 but now leave me alone. 400 00:39:24,460 --> 00:39:26,741 I have already managed to get transferred to a combat unit. 401 00:39:27,420 --> 00:39:29,570 I'm leaving next Tuesday. I hope they kill me. 402 00:39:31,540 --> 00:39:33,530 I hope so too. 403 00:40:40,580 --> 00:40:44,370 Okay, I'm coming. I'm here now. What do you want? 404 00:40:46,420 --> 00:40:48,620 What's wrong with you? What's the matter? 405 00:40:50,420 --> 00:40:51,570 Shut up now. 406 00:40:52,500 --> 00:40:55,420 Mom will give you a kiss and you will be silent. 407 00:40:56,380 --> 00:40:58,450 OK? That's it. 408 00:41:04,460 --> 00:41:06,450 What's the matter? You've already had dinner. 409 00:41:09,500 --> 00:41:12,460 Do you want to finish the bottle? I'll give it to you. 410 00:41:12,620 --> 00:41:16,540 Shut up now, come on. Be quiet! 411 00:41:19,420 --> 00:41:20,420 Here it is. 412 00:41:20,540 --> 00:41:24,500 Don't you want it? Come on, just a little. 413 00:41:32,540 --> 00:41:34,380 Shut up already. 414 00:41:35,500 --> 00:41:38,380 Are you wet? 415 00:41:40,420 --> 00:41:42,410 You're not wet. What's wrong with you? 416 00:41:43,620 --> 00:41:45,420 Shut up already. 417 00:41:47,540 --> 00:41:48,540 Shut up! 418 00:41:50,500 --> 00:41:53,460 Shut up already. Shut up already. I'm serious. 419 00:41:53,540 --> 00:41:55,610 I'm serious! Be quiet! 420 00:41:56,460 --> 00:41:57,500 Shut up! 421 00:42:01,460 --> 00:42:02,580 Leave me alone! 422 00:42:03,540 --> 00:42:11,540 My God, my God...! Mom, I can't take it anymore! 423 00:42:12,500 --> 00:42:14,781 I have to leave this city! I'll leave the girl with you! 424 00:42:15,420 --> 00:42:19,460 I can't, it's too much for me! I can't take it anymore, I can't stand it! 425 00:42:21,460 --> 00:42:23,500 I'm only 19 years old! 426 00:42:24,420 --> 00:42:28,460 I have a nice figure. They still look at me when I walk down the street. 427 00:42:28,540 --> 00:42:30,450 I want to have fun! 428 00:42:30,540 --> 00:42:31,660 And what will you do with the little one? 429 00:42:33,420 --> 00:42:36,380 I don't want her... I don't want her! 430 00:42:36,500 --> 00:42:39,460 I didn't want her when she was born and I don't want it now. 431 00:42:52,460 --> 00:42:56,380 SECOND PART PORTRAIT OF A YOUNG GIRL 432 00:42:58,460 --> 00:43:00,610 HOLLYWOOD 433 00:43:07,460 --> 00:43:08,620 Hello, where are the others? 434 00:43:10,420 --> 00:43:13,420 Do you know that Dutch Seymour called you 10 minutes after you left? 435 00:43:13,620 --> 00:43:14,620 I'll have to call him. 436 00:43:15,460 --> 00:43:17,380 Today you appear again in the column by Abe Sullivan. 437 00:43:17,460 --> 00:43:19,420 - Yes I know. - Hear this. 438 00:43:19,500 --> 00:43:22,460 "The great boxer Dutch Seymour he's talking to her about wedding bells 439 00:43:22,540 --> 00:43:25,540 to star Rita Shaw, formerly called Emily Ann Faulkner 440 00:43:25,620 --> 00:43:28,460 of Wicon City, Maryland." Why would he have written this? 441 00:43:28,620 --> 00:43:31,460 Because yesterday I called Joe Glass and I said "Joe..." 442 00:43:31,620 --> 00:43:34,460 Can you bring me a tail with crushed ice? 443 00:43:34,620 --> 00:43:39,570 I said "Joe, Dutch Seymour He keeps begging me to marry him. 444 00:43:40,420 --> 00:43:42,620 "Can that be news?" And I told him too. 445 00:43:43,460 --> 00:43:46,420 "If you manage to publish it, let it come out my real name, Emily Ann Faulkner." 446 00:43:46,500 --> 00:43:48,990 I talked to my mother last week and he told me that no one believes 447 00:43:49,000 --> 00:43:51,500 that those articles refer to me. 448 00:43:52,380 --> 00:43:55,460 Do you know that my mother I didn't know who Dutch was? Oh really. 449 00:43:55,620 --> 00:44:01,380 I told her "Mom, Dutch Seymour is one of the greats of boxing." 450 00:44:03,500 --> 00:44:07,500 - Do you drink before eating now? - I had 5 drinks before you came. 451 00:44:10,420 --> 00:44:14,420 You should have seen him last night. She's turning into an alcoholic. 452 00:44:14,500 --> 00:44:16,410 His mother has heart broken. 453 00:44:16,540 --> 00:44:18,450 I'm going to have to change apartments, Hillary. 454 00:44:18,540 --> 00:44:20,610 You hear nothing but screams and discussions all day. 455 00:44:21,460 --> 00:44:24,500 - Who do you live with now? - With Sandra Shelby. 456 00:44:25,460 --> 00:44:26,810 I thought you were with Charlene. 457 00:44:28,420 --> 00:44:31,460 Seriously, Dutch Seymour does he want to marry you? 458 00:44:32,540 --> 00:44:34,420 I don't know what he has seen in me. 459 00:44:34,500 --> 00:44:36,540 I'm serious. I have only done seven movies, 460 00:44:36,620 --> 00:44:38,530 and he only spoke in two of them. 461 00:44:38,620 --> 00:44:41,380 Although I must say that, since That article came out this morning, 462 00:44:41,500 --> 00:44:43,540 I have received four calls. 463 00:44:45,420 --> 00:44:47,380 I just talked to Hal Kings of the Metro. 464 00:44:47,460 --> 00:44:49,530 And I'll talk to Burt Harris within half an hour. 465 00:44:49,620 --> 00:44:52,460 I know a couple of girls who went out with Dutch Seymour, 466 00:44:52,540 --> 00:44:53,580 They say it's very boring. 467 00:44:54,420 --> 00:44:56,990 Hillary, Dutch has dated almost all the girls in Hollywood. 468 00:44:57,500 --> 00:44:58,540 But he is a lost soul. 469 00:44:59,580 --> 00:45:02,500 It must be very hard for a man be a sports celebrity 470 00:45:02,580 --> 00:45:05,460 and then retire and be nothing. 471 00:45:05,580 --> 00:45:09,540 Do you know that it travels from one place to another of the country giving talks to boy scouts? 472 00:45:10,500 --> 00:45:13,500 And if you don't spend the day in the room from the hotel calling his friends. 473 00:45:14,420 --> 00:45:16,380 He calls me twice a day. 474 00:45:17,380 --> 00:45:20,420 I think marrying him would be good for him. to my career. 475 00:45:20,620 --> 00:45:25,410 Yes, I think I'll get married. It's better to live with Joanna and her mother. 476 00:45:25,500 --> 00:45:26,570 I'm going to call Dutch. 477 00:45:29,580 --> 00:45:31,490 How about married life? Miss Seymour? 478 00:45:31,580 --> 00:45:32,580 Mrs. Seymour. 479 00:45:34,460 --> 00:45:35,990 I have never been happier in my life. 480 00:45:36,460 --> 00:45:37,580 It's been a great trip. 481 00:45:38,420 --> 00:45:40,490 But you've been there before 4 or 5 years ago. 482 00:45:40,620 --> 00:45:42,580 Do you think that marriage Will it interfere with your career? 483 00:45:44,420 --> 00:45:45,570 I haven't thought about that yet. 484 00:45:46,500 --> 00:45:50,420 But I don't think it will happen. TRUE? 485 00:45:59,580 --> 00:46:00,580 Know? 486 00:46:01,460 --> 00:46:03,370 Newly arrived here, 487 00:46:04,420 --> 00:46:06,990 I went to the bars and let them men will try to pick me up 488 00:46:07,060 --> 00:46:08,580 to have someone to talk to. 489 00:46:09,460 --> 00:46:10,580 At that time I didn't drink. 490 00:46:12,380 --> 00:46:15,500 I sat with those men until they got drunk 491 00:46:15,580 --> 00:46:18,460 and then I went home to read. 492 00:46:20,460 --> 00:46:23,380 Sometimes I fell asleep reading. 493 00:46:25,380 --> 00:46:27,580 He lived with a Greek couple on South Orange Drive, 494 00:46:29,500 --> 00:46:34,500 and I felt as alone as a shipwrecked man on a desert island. 495 00:46:38,580 --> 00:46:41,420 But he never took me home none of those men. 496 00:46:43,620 --> 00:46:46,540 At that time I couldn't stand the idea that no one would touch me. 497 00:46:47,620 --> 00:46:49,580 I was close of losing my mind. 498 00:46:51,500 --> 00:46:54,500 Hey, me too, shortly before we got married. 499 00:46:56,460 --> 00:46:59,460 I take great care of my appearance. I've always been like this, 500 00:46:59,540 --> 00:47:02,540 since I was young my family taught me They were very clean. 501 00:47:04,620 --> 00:47:09,540 That was my personal stamp, go impeccable. 502 00:47:10,460 --> 00:47:14,460 I don't know, but half a year before before we got married, it gave me... 503 00:47:15,540 --> 00:47:17,530 for not shaving in a week. 504 00:47:19,580 --> 00:47:21,380 God, 505 00:47:21,620 --> 00:47:24,620 someone like me... without shaving. 506 00:47:26,420 --> 00:47:29,500 He never stopped doing it, I even did it twice a day 507 00:47:29,620 --> 00:47:31,460 if I had to go somewhere. 508 00:47:33,620 --> 00:47:36,540 Sometimes I spent days without going out from the hotel room. 509 00:47:36,620 --> 00:47:39,500 I sat there like a fool with three days' beard. 510 00:47:40,580 --> 00:47:42,540 I was going crazy. 511 00:47:44,580 --> 00:47:46,460 What was that about, Dutch? 512 00:47:47,580 --> 00:47:49,420 I don't know. 513 00:47:54,620 --> 00:47:58,460 By doing nothing all day, The man ends up wasting away. 514 00:47:59,540 --> 00:48:01,420 I'm still young. 515 00:48:04,620 --> 00:48:07,500 I don't know what I want to do, but I want to do something. 516 00:48:07,620 --> 00:48:09,460 Maybe a business. 517 00:48:12,420 --> 00:48:14,410 You can't be forever former world champion 518 00:48:14,540 --> 00:48:16,420 of light weights. 519 00:48:18,460 --> 00:48:20,450 Hey, what do you think I could do? 520 00:48:22,500 --> 00:48:23,540 Don't know. 521 00:48:25,500 --> 00:48:28,460 I want to leave Hollywood as soon as possible. 522 00:48:31,580 --> 00:48:32,580 Oh really? 523 00:48:34,460 --> 00:48:37,500 I'm not doing anything here. Why deceive us? 524 00:48:41,540 --> 00:48:44,420 Would you like us to go to Saint Louis? 525 00:48:45,540 --> 00:48:48,540 To Saint Louis? What would we do there? 526 00:48:48,620 --> 00:48:51,620 My father died and now My brother runs the business. 527 00:48:52,460 --> 00:48:53,460 He is a contractor. 528 00:48:53,540 --> 00:48:56,460 He writes to me often to come back and participate in the business. 529 00:48:56,540 --> 00:49:00,420 I would also like to return and participate. 530 00:49:02,460 --> 00:49:04,420 I was very important there. 531 00:49:04,540 --> 00:49:07,380 He had... a good reputation. 532 00:49:09,580 --> 00:49:13,460 Hey, we'd buy a house and we would organize parties. 533 00:49:14,580 --> 00:49:16,540 You already met my brother at the wedding 534 00:49:17,420 --> 00:49:19,410 He likes you a lot, he really does. 535 00:49:20,500 --> 00:49:22,620 I think it would be nice... 536 00:49:25,540 --> 00:49:26,610 and authentic. 537 00:49:27,460 --> 00:49:30,460 We would no longer be suspended in the air like now. 538 00:49:32,620 --> 00:49:34,460 It would be nice, you would like it. 539 00:49:39,620 --> 00:49:41,380 Dutch, 540 00:49:41,620 --> 00:49:42,620 do you love me? 541 00:49:44,580 --> 00:49:45,620 Of course. 542 00:49:46,540 --> 00:49:49,580 I mean really. Do you really love me? 543 00:49:50,460 --> 00:49:52,450 Of course I love you, darling. 544 00:49:55,540 --> 00:49:56,610 So, 545 00:49:57,580 --> 00:50:01,370 let's go Let's go to Saint Louis! 546 00:50:01,500 --> 00:50:05,460 - I even have relatives there. - Oh, honey. 547 00:50:07,420 --> 00:50:09,540 We will be very happy, you'll see. 548 00:50:19,420 --> 00:50:22,500 You love me, Dutch. You love me! 549 00:50:24,580 --> 00:50:30,500 You love me, you love me. you love me 550 00:50:36,500 --> 00:50:39,380 What does it feel like when Do you love someone, Dutch? 551 00:50:40,540 --> 00:50:41,780 You've never loved anyone, huh? 552 00:50:44,500 --> 00:50:46,540 No one has ever loved me. 553 00:50:49,580 --> 00:50:52,380 In many ways I am a terrible girl. 554 00:50:53,580 --> 00:50:55,490 I gave up my three year old daughter 555 00:50:56,460 --> 00:50:58,610 simply giving it away to my first husband. 556 00:51:01,420 --> 00:51:02,540 He sent me some papers 557 00:51:02,620 --> 00:51:05,580 and I signed them without even read what they said. 558 00:51:07,500 --> 00:51:09,620 I have never been to New York to visit her. 559 00:51:14,460 --> 00:51:16,450 I still don't understand why do you want me 560 00:51:17,460 --> 00:51:18,530 You are like a girl. 561 00:51:19,500 --> 00:51:21,410 Like a girl. 562 00:51:22,540 --> 00:51:25,420 I like children. I adore my brother's children. 563 00:51:25,540 --> 00:51:27,420 I'm crazy about them. 564 00:51:27,540 --> 00:51:29,000 Honey, I'm going to take a shower. 565 00:51:29,400 --> 00:51:33,610 Then I come down, we have dinner, we have a cocktail and we go to Burt Lancaster's house. 566 00:51:34,540 --> 00:51:35,540 We are invited. 567 00:51:40,420 --> 00:51:42,460 - Is something wrong with you? - Excuse him. 568 00:51:43,620 --> 00:51:46,620 - I want to go upstairs, Dutch. - Aren't we going to Lancaster's house? 569 00:51:47,500 --> 00:51:49,460 - I want to go upstairs! - Hey, honey... 570 00:51:56,460 --> 00:51:59,380 Dutch, I can't go to Saint Louis. Can't! 571 00:52:01,420 --> 00:52:04,580 - We're not going, honey. - You'll get tired of me anyway. 572 00:52:05,460 --> 00:52:07,620 - Why do you say that? - I'm sure you'll leave me. 573 00:52:10,460 --> 00:52:13,500 If we go to St. Louis you will be ashamed of me 574 00:52:14,460 --> 00:52:17,580 You'll regret taking me. Your family won't like me. 575 00:52:18,420 --> 00:52:19,556 - Come on... - How am they going to like me? 576 00:52:19,580 --> 00:52:22,500 I'm nothing more than a whore. Dutch, give me another chance 577 00:52:22,580 --> 00:52:23,580 for my career. 578 00:52:24,460 --> 00:52:26,460 If I become someone you can take me to St. Louis, 579 00:52:26,500 --> 00:52:28,540 and I'm sure I'll like it to all your friends 580 00:52:29,420 --> 00:52:31,540 and you will be proud of me. 581 00:52:32,420 --> 00:52:35,460 Honey, you act like a girl. Come, sit down. 582 00:52:35,580 --> 00:52:38,420 - I'm sorry. - Come here and calm down. 583 00:52:38,540 --> 00:52:44,380 - Dear... - I'm sorry. I'm no good for anything. 584 00:52:44,500 --> 00:52:47,460 - Don't say that. - I'm useless. 585 00:52:47,580 --> 00:52:48,620 Honey... 586 00:54:26,460 --> 00:54:27,530 Can you get me that? 587 00:56:04,580 --> 00:56:06,620 Aren't you going to brush your teeth or take a shower? 588 00:57:39,540 --> 00:57:41,500 Do you have to pose for this kind of photos? 589 00:57:43,540 --> 00:57:45,530 I didn't know I was going to take them out in the magazine. 590 00:57:45,620 --> 00:57:47,530 He told me they were for Esquire. 591 00:57:58,420 --> 00:57:59,460 Won't you come with me? 592 00:58:00,460 --> 00:58:01,460 Where to? 593 00:58:02,420 --> 00:58:05,540 - You know where. - I never know where you're going. 594 00:58:06,500 --> 00:58:08,540 Lester Blackman throws a party on the set 595 00:58:08,580 --> 00:58:10,420 because they will end the movie tonight 596 00:58:10,580 --> 00:58:14,420 Lester says my role is the highlight of the film. 597 00:58:14,540 --> 00:58:17,420 And that R. M. Lucas, the vice president from the producer, 598 00:58:17,500 --> 00:58:20,580 has seen the evidence and gives his opinion also that my role is the best. 599 00:58:22,420 --> 00:58:24,410 And they are going to have that party on the set. 600 00:58:25,580 --> 00:58:27,380 Are you coming or not? 601 00:58:28,540 --> 00:58:31,580 I don't like this dress. I'm going to change. 602 00:58:32,500 --> 00:58:33,740 Close the blinds, will you? 603 00:58:34,620 --> 00:58:39,410 So that? You just have to buy that magazine. 604 00:58:41,540 --> 00:58:44,540 I haven't cheated on you even once in the eleven months of marriage. 605 00:58:44,620 --> 00:58:47,500 I could have signed a contract with Lester Blackman hundreds of times, 606 00:58:47,580 --> 00:58:50,580 whenever I wanted. But I told him "Mr. Blackman, I am a married woman, 607 00:58:51,420 --> 00:58:52,570 I don't do those things." 608 00:58:53,580 --> 00:58:55,570 I haven't cheated on you even once. 609 00:58:57,580 --> 00:58:59,540 That's something that you can't say. 610 00:59:02,500 --> 00:59:03,620 Why don't you shave? 611 00:59:04,580 --> 00:59:06,570 You've been locked up here for two days. 612 00:59:08,620 --> 00:59:10,500 You better wake up. 613 00:59:10,620 --> 00:59:13,500 You sleep until one, two, four, five in the afternoon. 614 00:59:13,620 --> 00:59:15,500 Yeah, maybe if I had a wife... 615 00:59:17,420 --> 00:59:17,580 What? 616 00:59:18,000 --> 00:59:19,570 You don't think about me, you've never done it. 617 00:59:20,000 --> 00:59:21,596 - Whenever you've wanted it... - Shut up. 618 00:59:21,620 --> 00:59:25,410 Shut up! you married me to appear in the newspapers, nothing more. 619 00:59:25,540 --> 00:59:28,380 And why did you marry me? Do you want to tell me? 620 00:59:28,460 --> 00:59:29,820 - You're a whore! - Come on, tell me! 621 00:59:30,260 --> 00:59:32,020 I even have to carry my clothes to the laundry. 622 00:59:32,460 --> 00:59:35,420 - Why did you marry me? - Because? Now you ask me? 623 00:59:35,540 --> 00:59:37,530 Do you want everyone to hear you? 624 00:59:41,500 --> 00:59:43,556 I married you because I believed that you were a good girl, 625 00:59:43,580 --> 00:59:44,580 and that you liked me. 626 00:59:47,500 --> 00:59:50,620 I want to get out of this damn city! I don't know what I'm doing here! 627 00:59:57,580 --> 00:59:59,570 I don't know where to go or what to do. 628 01:00:26,420 --> 01:00:27,540 I'm already there, Dutch. 629 01:00:29,460 --> 01:00:31,450 I'll wait for you if you want to get dressed. 630 01:00:34,620 --> 01:00:36,380 Dutch... 631 01:00:38,540 --> 01:00:39,580 I'm leaving 632 01:00:41,460 --> 01:00:42,460 OK? 633 01:01:34,500 --> 01:01:37,420 Lester, my wife, 634 01:01:38,500 --> 01:01:42,420 - Do you really have artistic talent? - He's got something, Dutch. 635 01:01:42,620 --> 01:01:45,420 It's good in this movie. It will attract attention. 636 01:01:46,580 --> 01:01:48,490 It has what I call... 637 01:01:49,620 --> 01:01:51,610 the quality of availability. 638 01:01:52,460 --> 01:01:55,460 If I show the most beautiful one, it makes all the men in the audience 639 01:01:55,540 --> 01:01:58,460 think you could make it yours if they got to know her. 640 01:01:58,580 --> 01:02:01,540 And she is a good comic actress. R. M. Lucas has seen the evidence. 641 01:02:02,540 --> 01:02:06,540 He's excited. He wants to hire her and make a great advertising campaign. 642 01:02:06,620 --> 01:02:07,620 A boom. 643 01:02:09,460 --> 01:02:10,460 Lester, 644 01:02:11,540 --> 01:02:14,460 I heard that you want to go to bed with my wife. 645 01:02:15,420 --> 01:02:17,570 If I hear it again, I will break your head. 646 01:02:46,580 --> 01:02:50,460 Dutch, I want to go with you. I want to go to St. Louis with you. 647 01:03:45,500 --> 01:03:46,540 Dutch... 648 01:03:48,540 --> 01:03:49,580 Dutch... 649 01:03:52,620 --> 01:03:55,540 I couldn't resist living in St. Louis and be a "nobody." 650 01:03:58,380 --> 01:04:00,500 You'd get tired of me in three months. 651 01:04:01,620 --> 01:04:04,420 I would go crazy doing nothing throughout the day. 652 01:04:05,380 --> 01:04:06,380 Dutch... 653 01:04:51,420 --> 01:04:52,460 Hello, Lester. 654 01:04:53,500 --> 01:04:55,570 Rita, I don't need to tell you. who is it, right? 655 01:04:56,420 --> 01:04:58,460 Mr. R. M. Lucas, one of our vice presidents. 656 01:04:58,620 --> 01:05:01,380 Nice to meet you. 657 01:05:01,540 --> 01:05:05,500 Mr. Lucas saw the movie last night. He's excited about your scene. 658 01:05:07,420 --> 01:05:08,740 You are a very attractive woman. 659 01:05:10,460 --> 01:05:14,500 It has great comedic qualities and it is very sensual. 660 01:05:15,460 --> 01:05:18,380 The public's response to you It has been very interesting. 661 01:05:18,580 --> 01:05:20,570 We think it's going to be something big. 662 01:05:21,460 --> 01:05:24,460 I have a role for you. 6 weeks of work. 663 01:05:24,580 --> 01:05:27,580 Your agent will tell you to accept it and we will send you the script. 664 01:05:29,420 --> 01:05:31,490 Furthermore, we would like to hire her. 665 01:05:32,580 --> 01:05:34,570 The technicians would be very favorable. 666 01:05:35,580 --> 01:05:39,620 Why don't you come to my house tonight and calmly discuss the matter? 667 01:05:41,380 --> 01:05:44,580 I usually have dinner at eight. You will surely like the menu. 668 01:05:47,620 --> 01:05:52,540 - Should I dress up or... will it be informal? - Whatever. 669 01:05:54,540 --> 01:05:56,530 Mr. Blackman will give you the address. 670 01:05:57,460 --> 01:05:59,420 Say hello to your husband for me. 671 01:05:59,500 --> 01:06:01,460 He's a very nice guy. 672 01:06:10,500 --> 01:06:12,540 Well, a star is born. 673 01:06:19,580 --> 01:06:24,610 PART THREE REFRAT OF A GODDESS. 1952 674 01:07:06,500 --> 01:07:07,570 Joe, Sally! 675 01:07:09,580 --> 01:07:11,460 Hello, come here. 676 01:07:19,500 --> 01:07:20,990 I want to introduce you to my mother. 677 01:07:21,420 --> 01:07:24,540 Mrs. Faulkner, Joe and Sally Wilsey. My mother arrived yesterday. 678 01:07:24,620 --> 01:07:26,500 Nice to meet you. How are you doing? 679 01:07:26,620 --> 01:07:29,336 My mother read in the newspapers that he had had a nervous breakdown. 680 01:07:29,360 --> 01:07:30,530 He called me on the phone. 681 01:07:31,500 --> 01:07:35,500 I already told you, right? About the call that cost $81. 682 01:07:35,580 --> 01:07:38,540 I knew my mother was coming. Come on, sit down. 683 01:07:40,500 --> 01:07:42,410 How long will you stay, Mrs. Faulkner? 684 01:07:42,620 --> 01:07:46,500 She says she will stay two weeks, but I want him to stay and live. 685 01:07:47,500 --> 01:07:49,460 This will be your new home. 686 01:07:50,420 --> 01:07:55,420 I've been trying for years to get him to come and leave the sad house where I lived with my uncles. 687 01:07:55,500 --> 01:07:57,460 Now that it's here, here it will stay. 688 01:07:57,620 --> 01:08:00,460 Mom, Mr. Wilsey is the producer from the movie where I had... 689 01:08:00,580 --> 01:08:02,380 the famous nervous exhaustion. 690 01:08:02,460 --> 01:08:04,450 They were by my side at all times. 691 01:08:05,460 --> 01:08:07,500 My oldest and dearest friends. 692 01:08:08,500 --> 01:08:12,380 They were the only ones who came to visit me at the sanatorium, 693 01:08:13,500 --> 01:08:14,620 apart from... 694 01:08:16,460 --> 01:08:19,420 Shirley Donahoe. She's my hairdresser. 695 01:08:19,460 --> 01:08:21,980 It's been in all the movies which I have done since 1949. 696 01:08:22,220 --> 01:08:23,570 I wouldn't make a movie without her. 697 01:08:24,420 --> 01:08:28,380 The other friends? They behave as if she were dead. 698 01:08:28,620 --> 01:08:31,620 That proves something, huh? Although I don't know what. 699 01:08:33,500 --> 01:08:35,460 Why don't you sit down? 700 01:08:35,540 --> 01:08:39,460 Actually we have come to invite you to eat with us. 701 01:08:39,580 --> 01:08:41,540 - Let's go to... - I'm sorry, Sally, I can't come. 702 01:08:42,540 --> 01:08:46,580 I have to eat with my mother. We hadn't seen each other for eight years. 703 01:08:47,580 --> 01:08:49,420 Eight years. 704 01:08:49,580 --> 01:08:52,380 It's not normal between mothers and daughter, huh? 705 01:08:54,380 --> 01:08:58,460 Joe, Abe Sullivan called me yesterday. He said he just found out 706 01:08:58,580 --> 01:09:00,570 that I was not going to see to that psychiatrist. 707 01:09:01,420 --> 01:09:02,460 Yes I know. 708 01:09:02,500 --> 01:09:03,500 And I told him: 709 01:09:03,580 --> 01:09:07,460 "I'm not crazy! "Why do I want a psychiatrist?" 710 01:09:09,380 --> 01:09:11,580 Why don't you stay here and do you eat with us? 711 01:09:12,420 --> 01:09:13,980 - No, Rita, it's just... - No problem. 712 01:09:14,420 --> 01:09:15,990 I'll tell the cook. I won't be long. 713 01:09:16,580 --> 01:09:21,450 Rita, let's go eat with Arlene Cubo in Frascatis. 714 01:09:28,620 --> 01:09:30,500 Will you excuse me for a moment? 715 01:09:40,540 --> 01:09:44,620 I want to thank you for what you have done made by my daughter when she needed it. 716 01:09:45,540 --> 01:09:49,420 Talk about your friendship with deep affection. 717 01:09:49,500 --> 01:09:52,420 Mrs. Faulkner, just We know his daughter. 718 01:09:52,620 --> 01:09:55,580 I didn't know her until We started my film 4 months ago. 719 01:09:56,500 --> 01:09:59,460 And my wife just does three weeks that he has known her. 720 01:10:00,420 --> 01:10:03,620 I went to visit her at the sanatorium because It delayed the movie for me thirteen days. 721 01:10:04,460 --> 01:10:07,460 That cost me more of $150,000. 722 01:10:08,500 --> 01:10:12,460 It saddens me to think that we considers his best friends. 723 01:10:13,460 --> 01:10:15,420 But I'm glad it's you here, 724 01:10:15,500 --> 01:10:17,460 because he needs someone. 725 01:10:18,620 --> 01:10:22,620 Try to convince her to go to see that psychiatrist again. 726 01:10:24,540 --> 01:10:28,580 - The truth is that I don't know how to do it. - Talk to her, Mrs. Faulkner, 727 01:10:29,460 --> 01:10:31,450 I assure you that you need to that psychiatrist. 728 01:10:31,620 --> 01:10:33,420 Talk to her. 729 01:10:42,580 --> 01:10:46,500 American citizens, allow me to tell you that the time has come. 730 01:10:46,620 --> 01:10:49,500 The time has come of a new victory. 731 01:10:49,580 --> 01:10:52,540 Another glorious victory of the republican party, 732 01:10:52,620 --> 01:10:57,380 and a happy relief for the suffering American people 733 01:10:57,500 --> 01:11:00,420 on the opening day. 734 01:11:08,420 --> 01:11:09,490 It's not... 735 01:11:10,420 --> 01:11:14,580 It is not a detraction of honor 736 01:11:15,420 --> 01:11:17,620 and the glory of our first president. 737 01:11:18,460 --> 01:11:22,460 This man's day is that of our generation. 738 01:11:23,380 --> 01:11:27,380 And as Harry Lee said of the immortal Washington, 739 01:11:27,540 --> 01:11:30,500 He is the first in the war, the first in peace, 740 01:11:31,380 --> 01:11:34,420 and the first in the heart of his compatriots. 741 01:11:52,500 --> 01:11:53,500 Are you comfortable, mom? 742 01:11:55,460 --> 01:11:56,610 Everything's fine. 743 01:11:58,380 --> 01:12:01,420 I think this is the house biggest I've ever seen. 744 01:12:01,540 --> 01:12:04,540 Yes, I think the house that I love so much boasted Mrs. Phillips 745 01:12:04,620 --> 01:12:08,460 - would fit inside the living room. - Sure. 746 01:12:10,580 --> 01:12:14,500 I have asked about the congregation Los Angeles Adventist and there is one. 747 01:12:14,620 --> 01:12:17,380 - I'll take you tomorrow. - Good. 748 01:12:17,460 --> 01:12:19,450 I don't want to get lost the sabbath ceremony. 749 01:12:25,420 --> 01:12:26,620 Keep up your prayers, Mom. 750 01:12:27,620 --> 01:12:29,500 I'll sit there. 751 01:12:40,420 --> 01:12:43,380 Now I earn 4,000 a week, did you know? 752 01:12:46,620 --> 01:12:48,500 Have you seen the latest Film Daily? 753 01:12:49,580 --> 01:12:53,500 Do you know that they consider me a of the six highest-grossing actresses? 754 01:12:57,540 --> 01:13:01,420 And do you know what the movie in New York in a week? 755 01:13:01,500 --> 01:13:05,460 They premiered it at the Roxy and They obtained 135,624 dollars. 756 01:13:06,420 --> 01:13:07,460 It's a record. 757 01:13:09,540 --> 01:13:13,580 - What do you think of your daughter? - Which is very good. 758 01:13:18,420 --> 01:13:19,490 What are you reading, mom? 759 01:13:22,620 --> 01:13:28,410 "You will know that I am the Lord and I have opened your graves, 760 01:13:28,500 --> 01:13:29,540 oh my people. 761 01:13:30,540 --> 01:13:35,570 I have taken you out of them, I will infuse you with my spirit 762 01:13:36,420 --> 01:13:38,380 and you will live..." 763 01:13:42,420 --> 01:13:43,740 I'm glad you came, mom. 764 01:13:44,620 --> 01:13:47,580 I could go crazy spinning around in this big house. 765 01:13:48,000 --> 01:13:50,990 I wanted to come the day I read in the newspapers about your nervous breakdown. 766 01:13:51,120 --> 01:13:52,490 I don't know what's wrong with me! 767 01:13:52,580 --> 01:13:55,500 Do you know what happened to me that day that I had the crisis in the studio? 768 01:13:56,420 --> 01:13:57,540 I started screaming. 769 01:13:58,460 --> 01:13:59,580 I saw a cat on the set. 770 01:14:00,540 --> 01:14:02,610 And I started yelling "Get away from me." 771 01:14:03,500 --> 01:14:06,580 And I like cats, you know that. Here I have two conjoined twins. 772 01:14:07,580 --> 01:14:09,620 I think my nerves They reached the limit. 773 01:14:10,620 --> 01:14:12,530 I was drinking a lot. 774 01:14:13,460 --> 01:14:15,450 I confess the sin of drinking. 775 01:14:16,620 --> 01:14:18,380 Mom, 776 01:14:19,580 --> 01:14:21,540 I can't stand being alone. 777 01:14:23,580 --> 01:14:27,460 Sometimes I bring men home, but when they leave I don't know what to do, 778 01:14:27,540 --> 01:14:29,420 because I can't stand being alone. 779 01:14:34,580 --> 01:14:39,420 I wake up many times in the middle of the night, sweating. 780 01:14:40,420 --> 01:14:42,490 I have palpitations and I can't breathe. 781 01:14:43,420 --> 01:14:44,940 Then I call the servants and I ask you 782 01:14:45,460 --> 01:14:47,500 keep me company until dawn. 783 01:14:50,540 --> 01:14:54,620 I need you here, mom, with me, because I notice that I'm going crazy. 784 01:14:55,460 --> 01:14:57,530 Seriously, I think I'm getting going crazy 785 01:14:58,620 --> 01:15:01,420 We are on this earth to suffer. 786 01:15:01,620 --> 01:15:05,410 I will take care of you, mom. Really, I'll take care of you. 787 01:15:05,500 --> 01:15:08,380 You will go with me wherever I go. You will be by my side. 788 01:15:08,540 --> 01:15:12,420 Last week, after to talk to you on the phone, 789 01:15:14,460 --> 01:15:21,490 I went to see Mr. Weingwright, the old man. To him and your aunt, who was there, 790 01:15:22,620 --> 01:15:24,500 I looked at them and said: 791 01:15:25,540 --> 01:15:28,460 Wealth and fame are nothing. 792 01:15:28,620 --> 01:15:31,580 There is my daughter, the envy of his generation, 793 01:15:33,460 --> 01:15:35,530 that was falling apart by phone... 794 01:15:36,580 --> 01:15:41,450 And I added: My daughter is approaching to its cataclysm. 795 01:15:41,580 --> 01:15:45,540 She has lived tormented and in sin. 796 01:15:46,500 --> 01:15:49,540 Has borne the mark of the beast about her. 797 01:15:50,620 --> 01:15:54,500 She must join Jesus and then 798 01:15:55,540 --> 01:15:57,610 maybe he can redeem himself, 799 01:15:58,580 --> 01:16:02,370 how all men will be redeemed of the curse, 800 01:16:02,500 --> 01:16:05,460 when their bodies return to mother earth... 801 01:16:06,420 --> 01:16:09,580 Just open your soul. Open your arms, 802 01:16:10,620 --> 01:16:16,410 and let Jesus Christ come into you. You shouldn't hide anything from him. 803 01:16:17,540 --> 01:16:21,460 Let him fill your body and your soul, 804 01:16:24,420 --> 01:16:29,420 and you will be transported to peace and love. 805 01:16:31,420 --> 01:16:32,460 Lord 806 01:16:35,620 --> 01:16:39,460 I give myself without any resentment, 807 01:16:41,500 --> 01:16:45,540 and I feel your sweet love. 808 01:16:46,460 --> 01:16:48,420 And your peace. 809 01:16:50,540 --> 01:16:55,540 I feel it close to me. Very close to me. 810 01:16:56,460 --> 01:16:57,580 Open your soul and your heart. 811 01:16:59,620 --> 01:17:07,460 Oh my God, my God... My God, my God... 812 01:17:07,620 --> 01:17:13,620 Life is pain, sin and torment. Jesus Christ absolves you, daughter, 813 01:17:14,460 --> 01:17:19,410 and there is no pain, there is no sin and there is no torment, 814 01:17:20,540 --> 01:17:23,460 because your body is full of his eternal love, 815 01:17:23,620 --> 01:17:28,570 his eternal compassion. open your heart 816 01:17:29,540 --> 01:17:32,580 and let Christ come in in every part of you. 817 01:17:54,380 --> 01:17:56,370 -Joe! - Hello, Rita. 818 01:17:57,420 --> 01:17:59,570 - How are you, dear? - I'm sorry I was late. 819 01:18:00,420 --> 01:18:03,460 But time flies. Mom, we're here. 820 01:18:04,420 --> 01:18:05,540 - Sit down, Joe. - Thank you. 821 01:18:06,420 --> 01:18:09,420 I took my mother for a walk by Sherman Oaks. 822 01:18:09,500 --> 01:18:12,540 I have shown him the huge house that Johnny Tower has. Or had. 823 01:18:13,420 --> 01:18:15,460 Do you know that he was the father from my first husband? 824 01:18:15,540 --> 01:18:16,580 I don't know who will live now. 825 01:18:17,420 --> 01:18:19,540 There are many orange and lemon trees over there. 826 01:18:23,620 --> 01:18:25,610 I guess my mother will have gone up. 827 01:18:26,500 --> 01:18:28,460 I'm very happy to see you so well. 828 01:18:30,420 --> 01:18:31,570 Joe, I'm happy. 829 01:18:33,460 --> 01:18:36,460 Know? I have found God. 830 01:18:37,460 --> 01:18:38,530 I assure you. 831 01:18:40,460 --> 01:18:43,620 I think that Sally and you I can tell it to you, because you won't make fun of it. 832 01:18:46,620 --> 01:18:50,580 Last Wednesday I woke up at midnight with my old panic. 833 01:18:51,460 --> 01:18:53,450 Joe, you were there when we were filming in Arizona. 834 01:18:53,540 --> 01:18:57,420 You know how I was that night, when I tried to commit suicide. 835 01:18:58,500 --> 01:18:59,620 On Wednesday night, 836 01:19:00,460 --> 01:19:03,460 I went to my mother's room, I woke her up 837 01:19:04,460 --> 01:19:05,530 and we pray. 838 01:19:06,500 --> 01:19:08,620 I asked God to save my soul. 839 01:19:10,460 --> 01:19:14,620 She took my hand, squeezing it with his fingers. 840 01:19:16,460 --> 01:19:19,460 I think that saved me, that my mother squeezed me hard. 841 01:19:20,420 --> 01:19:25,450 Now I know why I had those nightmares when I got drunk. 842 01:19:25,620 --> 01:19:27,580 It was the most terrible thing in the world. 843 01:19:28,540 --> 01:19:32,460 My first husband told me how alone he felt. 844 01:19:33,540 --> 01:19:35,420 Now I know what he meant. 845 01:19:35,620 --> 01:19:37,420 It's like... 846 01:19:38,500 --> 01:19:41,380 if the rest of the world was somewhere else. 847 01:19:42,540 --> 01:19:44,380 Like an echo. 848 01:19:49,580 --> 01:19:53,580 It's hard to explain. Finally... 849 01:19:54,620 --> 01:20:00,570 my mother held my hand and we pray. And... 850 01:20:03,420 --> 01:20:07,500 I felt like I disappeared. It had disappeared. 851 01:20:09,500 --> 01:20:13,460 I felt light and free of worries. 852 01:20:16,420 --> 01:20:19,460 It was so wonderful We spent the night chatting. 853 01:20:19,620 --> 01:20:22,580 Then dawn came. It was wonderful. 854 01:20:23,620 --> 01:20:27,410 The sky was red, like on fire, Like God was telling me. 855 01:20:28,420 --> 01:20:29,490 "Everything's fine". 856 01:20:30,620 --> 01:20:33,540 As if he said it to me personally. 857 01:20:34,580 --> 01:20:36,570 I felt so good that I wanted to scream. 858 01:20:38,460 --> 01:20:41,540 Oh my god, it's wonderful be with my mother! 859 01:20:42,460 --> 01:20:45,500 Rita, it's wonderful to see you like this. 860 01:20:46,460 --> 01:20:47,500 joe, 861 01:20:48,620 --> 01:20:53,540 I'm ready to go back to work. Now I'll call Abe Sullivan 862 01:20:53,620 --> 01:20:57,580 to tell the studio that they can Send me scripts whenever you want. 863 01:21:44,580 --> 01:21:47,420 If you think I'm going to pay you the train ticket, you're crazy! 864 01:21:48,260 --> 01:21:49,810 And I won't take you to the station either. 865 01:21:50,460 --> 01:21:51,610 You can go alone. 866 01:21:53,620 --> 01:21:56,500 I won't send you money again! I won't send you anything. 867 01:21:56,580 --> 01:21:58,570 Honey, let it be known that I warned you upon arrival. 868 01:21:59,460 --> 01:22:01,660 Mom, what have I done to you? Do you want to tell me, please? 869 01:22:02,380 --> 01:22:04,420 I wasn't planning on staying longer than two or three weeks. 870 01:22:04,540 --> 01:22:06,420 I have done my best to make you happy. 871 01:22:06,500 --> 01:22:07,740 I have been here more than two months. 872 01:22:07,800 --> 01:22:10,810 I made a donation of $10,000 to help you in your missionary work. 873 01:22:11,620 --> 01:22:15,410 Honey, you know your uncle George He is very sick. 874 01:22:16,500 --> 01:22:18,490 And Alice Mary has to take care of it from the store, 875 01:22:18,580 --> 01:22:20,540 They can't get along without me. 876 01:22:22,420 --> 01:22:24,020 Nothing I do pleases you, right? 877 01:22:24,460 --> 01:22:26,420 I don't think it has ever pleased you! 878 01:22:26,580 --> 01:22:28,570 All you do is run away from me. 879 01:22:29,620 --> 01:22:34,540 I hate you so much that I don't know how to tell you. You can leave my house, go away! 880 01:22:35,420 --> 01:22:37,820 You never cared if I was alive or dead. Get out of here! 881 01:22:38,380 --> 01:22:40,500 I don't want to see you again, not even in your grave! 882 01:22:40,580 --> 01:22:43,420 I hope you die soon, that heart of ice 883 01:22:43,540 --> 01:22:45,420 burst you into a thousand pieces! 884 01:22:45,580 --> 01:22:47,570 I wanted to tell you! 885 01:23:12,460 --> 01:23:14,420 God does not exist! 886 01:23:14,580 --> 01:23:17,460 Do you hear me? God does not exist! 887 01:23:19,540 --> 01:23:21,450 Did you hear what I said? 888 01:23:23,540 --> 01:23:28,460 God does not exist! God does not exist! No! 889 01:23:30,620 --> 01:23:32,500 God does not exist! 890 01:23:42,500 --> 01:23:44,570 God does not exist. 891 01:24:34,420 --> 01:24:36,970 I hope all those people think who is overwhelmed by pain, 892 01:24:37,420 --> 01:24:40,460 but he has come to his mother's funeral completely drunk. 893 01:24:40,580 --> 01:24:42,490 It's not because of lack of respect. 894 01:24:42,620 --> 01:24:44,500 He is almost always drunk. 895 01:25:38,580 --> 01:25:39,620 Hello, Emily Ann. 896 01:25:46,620 --> 01:25:48,380 John! 897 01:25:52,620 --> 01:25:55,500 I didn't expect to see you here. 898 01:25:59,580 --> 01:26:05,580 Meet my aunt, Alice Mary and Miss Highwood, my secretary. 899 01:26:08,420 --> 01:26:10,570 My first husband, Mr. John Tower. 900 01:26:25,580 --> 01:26:27,540 Please excuse me. 901 01:26:38,420 --> 01:26:40,460 I heard a heavenly voice saying inside me 902 01:26:40,580 --> 01:26:44,500 "Blessed are those who die in peace with the Lord". 903 01:26:45,420 --> 01:26:47,701 "Yes," said the spirit, "because They will rest from their work 904 01:26:48,420 --> 01:26:50,410 and earthly sufferings. 905 01:26:51,460 --> 01:26:55,500 And I saw a new heaven and a new earth, because heaven and the first earth 906 01:26:55,620 --> 01:26:58,620 they were left behind. And there was no more seed. 907 01:26:59,540 --> 01:27:02,580 And I, John, saw the holy city, the new Jerusalem, 908 01:27:03,460 --> 01:27:06,540 that descended from heaven from God prepared like a wife 909 01:27:06,620 --> 01:27:08,530 for her husband. 910 01:27:09,420 --> 01:27:12,460 And I heard a voice from heaven saying "Pay attention, 911 01:27:12,540 --> 01:27:14,580 the tabernacle of the Lord is among men... 912 01:27:15,500 --> 01:27:20,620 I want to die! I want to die! I want to die, I want to die! 913 01:27:21,580 --> 01:27:26,500 Let me go, let me go! I want to die, I want to die! 914 01:27:27,420 --> 01:27:29,540 Mom... I want to die. 915 01:27:53,540 --> 01:27:55,420 We are here, on the porch. 916 01:28:04,620 --> 01:28:07,540 You and the girl have been very kind. coming to the funeral. 917 01:28:08,460 --> 01:28:10,370 My daughter asked me to come. 918 01:28:11,620 --> 01:28:13,500 She's asleep, Mr. Tower. 919 01:28:13,620 --> 01:28:15,580 I gave him a sedative when it faded. 920 01:28:16,540 --> 01:28:18,450 to my daughter He would very much like to meet her. 921 01:28:18,540 --> 01:28:20,450 I don't think I'll let him see her. Mr. Tower. 922 01:28:20,620 --> 01:28:22,610 What authority do you have in this, Miss Highwood? 923 01:28:23,460 --> 01:28:27,380 I've been with Miss Shaw for three years, and I have great affection for him. 924 01:28:27,580 --> 01:28:30,500 If there is anything in this world that I will remember until the day I die, 925 01:28:30,620 --> 01:28:33,540 It is the image of you, two years ago, in that lawyer's office, 926 01:28:33,580 --> 01:28:36,540 while that woman begged him hysterical and on my knees 927 01:28:37,380 --> 01:28:39,530 to let him see his daughter, and you told him no. 928 01:28:40,380 --> 01:28:43,500 It didn't seem like a good idea to me that my daughter I spent two weeks with a hysterical woman. 929 01:28:43,580 --> 01:28:45,570 Do you know that that night tried to commit suicide? 930 01:28:46,540 --> 01:28:49,580 I guess your duty is to care of that poor woman. 931 01:28:50,620 --> 01:28:53,460 Mine is to make my daughter love life 932 01:28:53,540 --> 01:28:55,610 My daughter was a strange child for a long time, 933 01:28:57,460 --> 01:28:58,580 like their parents. 934 01:28:59,580 --> 01:29:01,420 And like his grandparents. 935 01:29:02,500 --> 01:29:04,490 And like the generations that preceded her, 936 01:29:04,580 --> 01:29:10,580 and they came to the brink of suicide and madness. But now it's okay. 937 01:29:11,540 --> 01:29:13,380 He likes to live. 938 01:29:13,580 --> 01:29:15,620 I think she will be a happy woman when I grow up. 939 01:29:16,420 --> 01:29:19,580 His great wish is to meet his mother. She is a loving girl. 940 01:29:20,620 --> 01:29:23,500 It has given me little interest what I feel about life. 941 01:29:23,580 --> 01:29:26,500 And I think Rita I might as well give it to him. 942 01:29:27,460 --> 01:29:29,500 You take care of your girl, Mr. Tower. 943 01:29:31,420 --> 01:29:32,570 I'll take care of mine. 944 01:29:33,500 --> 01:29:35,490 So you've finally found to a mother 945 01:29:40,460 --> 01:29:42,420 - I'll be back later. - No. 946 01:29:42,620 --> 01:29:44,460 You can wait right here. 947 01:29:44,620 --> 01:29:46,420 He will get up soon. 948 01:29:47,580 --> 01:29:50,580 I better go upstairs. He likes to see me when he wakes up. 949 01:30:07,580 --> 01:30:08,620 Hello, little one. 950 01:30:19,500 --> 01:30:21,410 Mr. Tower is downstairs. 951 01:30:26,460 --> 01:30:28,500 - Is the girl with him? - No. 952 01:30:33,500 --> 01:30:37,460 - Can you tell him to come up? - OK. 953 01:30:39,580 --> 01:30:41,460 It's starting again. 954 01:30:43,460 --> 01:30:46,580 - I'm getting nervous. -Rita. 955 01:30:58,420 --> 01:31:01,540 A telegram of condolence has arrived by Joe and Sally Wilsey. 956 01:31:03,580 --> 01:31:05,380 Who are they? 957 01:31:07,380 --> 01:31:09,420 Oh yes, yes... 958 01:31:10,580 --> 01:31:12,460 Now I remember. 959 01:31:15,620 --> 01:31:18,460 Sometimes I have thought what would become of them. 960 01:31:21,620 --> 01:31:24,460 I don't know, I don't know, I don't know. 961 01:31:25,540 --> 01:31:28,580 We shouldn't be here. No We should have come to this city. 962 01:31:30,580 --> 01:31:35,610 It's the same as always. The same as always. 963 01:31:37,420 --> 01:31:39,410 Have you seen the house where I grew up? 964 01:31:39,540 --> 01:31:42,420 Have you seen her? Horrendous, huh? 965 01:31:44,460 --> 01:31:49,460 Horrible, horrendous, horrendous. Oh my god... 966 01:31:51,500 --> 01:31:55,420 I'm still the same. I am the same. 967 01:31:55,540 --> 01:31:57,580 I will never be different. 968 01:31:59,580 --> 01:32:05,530 She was a... miserable girl. 969 01:32:06,420 --> 01:32:09,500 A girl who was walking around these dirty streets with their booties. 970 01:32:12,420 --> 01:32:15,580 I would like to sleep, but for the rest of my life. 971 01:32:16,540 --> 01:32:20,380 I wish I could sleep the rest of my life. 972 01:32:24,420 --> 01:32:26,490 Do you want a sedative to see your ex-husband? 973 01:32:49,500 --> 01:32:51,570 Do you have sleeping pills? 974 01:32:53,420 --> 01:32:54,420 YEAH. 975 01:32:55,540 --> 01:32:59,380 I have an idea. Hey, 976 01:33:00,500 --> 01:33:04,540 Why don't you go down and tell him my ex-husband to come up? 977 01:33:05,460 --> 01:33:08,580 Then I'll take some pills to sleep, and I will rest on the plane. 978 01:33:11,540 --> 01:33:12,540 OK. 979 01:33:20,540 --> 01:33:23,580 - A sandwich? - It would be fine. 980 01:34:19,460 --> 01:34:20,500 Hello, Amy. 981 01:34:24,540 --> 01:34:26,450 Do you know what I was thinking? 982 01:34:28,540 --> 01:34:31,460 I thought life was a farce. 983 01:34:32,580 --> 01:34:34,540 It's really nothing. 984 01:34:36,420 --> 01:34:38,540 I am 31 years old and when I look back 985 01:34:39,460 --> 01:34:41,530 the only thing I can think of to say is "So what?" 986 01:34:42,580 --> 01:34:45,460 I have a nice house, you know? 987 01:34:46,460 --> 01:34:47,500 A garden... 988 01:34:48,620 --> 01:34:50,580 as far as the eye can see. 989 01:34:52,540 --> 01:34:57,380 Flowers...red from paradise and tulips. 990 01:35:00,420 --> 01:35:04,380 I can't get out of a taxi in New York without having hundreds of people 991 01:35:04,540 --> 01:35:07,380 around me screaming how much they love me. 992 01:35:09,540 --> 01:35:11,380 I have met men. 993 01:35:13,460 --> 01:35:14,500 many men, 994 01:35:16,620 --> 01:35:18,460 with anonymous faces, 995 01:35:20,380 --> 01:35:23,420 because I don't remember any of them. They are anonymous. 996 01:35:28,580 --> 01:35:32,500 And I swear I can't think of any reason to get up tomorrow. 997 01:35:33,460 --> 01:35:36,460 - Life is a farce, huh, John? - No. 998 01:35:40,620 --> 01:35:42,420 I'm remembering you, 999 01:35:43,420 --> 01:35:47,420 drunk as a drunk in that hotel room, 1000 01:35:48,500 --> 01:35:52,580 the montgomery hotel telling me these same things, 1001 01:35:54,500 --> 01:35:56,490 and quoting the great poets. 1002 01:35:56,620 --> 01:36:00,380 "Life is boring," said the preacher, no one can change it." 1003 01:36:00,620 --> 01:36:02,500 When I was little, 1004 01:36:03,580 --> 01:36:06,540 I dreamed very often that was drowning me. 1005 01:36:07,500 --> 01:36:11,460 "Quiet and dark currents out of nowhere, where everything was drowning". 1006 01:36:12,420 --> 01:36:14,570 I think it must be a pleasant feeling... 1007 01:36:16,460 --> 01:36:19,380 lie down and float... 1008 01:36:21,500 --> 01:36:23,540 let the water cover you. 1009 01:36:30,580 --> 01:36:35,450 I can't stand this life anymore, John. How are you? 1010 01:36:35,620 --> 01:36:39,580 We couldn't talk much the last time we saw each other. 1011 01:36:40,580 --> 01:36:42,570 I still resist. 1012 01:36:45,580 --> 01:36:48,420 You seem so good. 1013 01:36:50,540 --> 01:36:52,420 I see you haven't changed. 1014 01:36:52,500 --> 01:36:54,490 I wish we had known today. 1015 01:36:56,620 --> 01:37:02,410 Hold me, Johnny, hug me, hug me...! 1016 01:37:12,620 --> 01:37:15,460 You are the only man I have ever loved. 1017 01:37:17,620 --> 01:37:21,460 You didn't love me either, You needed me, but you didn't love me. 1018 01:37:22,500 --> 01:37:25,420 You've never known what love is. They didn't teach you. 1019 01:37:25,620 --> 01:37:28,500 life is unbearable if you don't love someone. 1020 01:37:28,620 --> 01:37:32,460 Come with me, our daughter He is waiting in a bar. 1021 01:37:32,620 --> 01:37:35,460 I want you to meet her. People like us 1022 01:37:35,540 --> 01:37:37,990 we can't love anyone more than our own children. 1023 01:37:38,360 --> 01:37:40,170 She has given me moments of happiness, 1024 01:37:40,200 --> 01:37:42,460 moments in which I have verified that life is beautiful. 1025 01:37:42,500 --> 01:37:46,460 - She wants to meet you. - I can't see it, John, I can't. 1026 01:37:47,500 --> 01:37:49,490 We have come because She wants to meet you. 1027 01:37:49,620 --> 01:37:52,540 I can't look at her, Johnny! She hates me. 1028 01:37:52,620 --> 01:37:55,380 -Amy... - Leave me, leave me! 1029 01:37:55,460 --> 01:37:56,500 Leave it. 1030 01:37:56,620 --> 01:37:59,580 Would you rather see her taking love in doses in cheap hotel rooms? 1031 01:38:00,420 --> 01:38:02,380 I'm useless, useless! 1032 01:38:02,460 --> 01:38:04,620 I had my mother suffering for 17 hours when I was born. 1033 01:38:04,650 --> 01:38:07,490 I have caused nothing but pain to everyone the ones I've known since then! 1034 01:38:07,540 --> 01:38:10,420 Where are the pills, where have you put them? 1035 01:38:10,580 --> 01:38:12,460 A useless one! Leave me alone! 1036 01:38:12,620 --> 01:38:16,540 - Rita, tell me where the pills are. - Leave me, please! 1037 01:38:17,580 --> 01:38:19,620 Where are the pills, honey? 1038 01:38:23,620 --> 01:38:27,540 - Under the mattress. - Lie down, honey. 1039 01:38:45,420 --> 01:38:47,570 He was going to a psychiatrist for four months. 1040 01:38:48,380 --> 01:38:51,500 Then the doctor said that she will never respond to treatment, 1041 01:38:51,620 --> 01:38:53,530 that will always be the same. 1042 01:38:54,620 --> 01:38:57,420 Now follow a simple therapy. 1043 01:38:59,420 --> 01:39:02,500 I'll take her to California, to continue making movies. 1044 01:39:02,620 --> 01:39:04,460 It's the only thing he knows how to do. 1045 01:39:04,620 --> 01:39:07,380 And what happens next, will happen. 1046 01:39:09,460 --> 01:39:10,530 But I love her. 1047 01:39:12,460 --> 01:39:14,450 And I will take care of her. 1048 01:39:23,620 --> 01:39:25,460 See you, Amy. 1049 01:39:29,460 --> 01:39:32,380 When I'm in Hollywood will you come visit me? 1050 01:39:33,620 --> 01:39:35,420 Of course.